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Days are starting to look up lately, other than school.
Portfolio review is on the 18th and I have nothing together yet.
It's not even procrastination, I just don't have to money to buy my own work.
And just 6 days after that, I'll be loosing my license for driving like a dumbass.

But back to the first line;
I've found a few great people over the past few months.
As well as connected with people I have been close with in a long time.
I'm starting to find myself, and think more like an adult everyday.
And it surprises me.
I think rationally, and have found myself finally saying to myself 'Who cares what they think" or " they'll never remember you anyways, who cares what you look like to them."....
Just things you'd never think would come from me a few months ago.

I'm hoping and going to believe that what I want to major in for college isn't a joke.
I hope that I go so far in this, and actually make enough to not live in the poor house forever.

Meh.
Goodnight.

Seeing the large amounts of time spent online...

with nothing do to, I think I should try to get back into writing out my days, and thoughts.
It's supposedly healthy, I hear.

So a little after 2 months of being with Jordin, her attitude and mannerisms got the best of me, and I called it off.
It's unfortunate, she is a great person when she puts the effort forth. Which I suppose you could take as I'm not worth the effort, or things of that nature, but I think it was mostly on her.

Stayed home from school, yet again.
I hate that I feel the need to do so, my gym grade is terrible and my mom is getting threatening letters for my absences.
I feel like driving, but that never goes over well; I just waste gas and end up sitting alone, without a cigarette, bored.

Realizations of the day;
I need a hair cut.
Losing something you thought was good for you, but found out was the opposite, is relatively relieving.
Sitting between 6 speakers playing Apparat is probably the best stress relief there is, Prescriptions set aside *wink*
I'm better than what I view myself as. And on many levels I'm lower than where I place myself.

So farewell to Jordin
Hello to a new chapter

I've got a lot to work on
And I'll get right on it.